November 24, 1999

Subject: More feedbacks from you and some more gems

Hello everyone

I have already enough feedbacks to share with all of you. So I won't wait any longer and send them right away as there are - as usual - numerous other urgent matters to put to your attention shortly.

I want to reiterate my deep appreciation for the time and loving attention many of you put into writing about your insights and opinions for the benefit of all other 1500+ people on the Earth Rainbow Network emailing list. A resounding thank you!

In service for a better and more enlightened world

Jean Hudon
Earth Rainbow Network Coordinator
http://www.cybernaute.com/earthconcert2000




From: "Kerry Boytzun" <successmachine@home.com>
Subject: metaphysics 101 is flawed...
Date: Sat, 20 Nov 1999

hi Jean. I enjoy your emails and dedication to your movement of information.

One of your replies to someone shared a common myth/idea about "metaphysics
101". Problem with any idea is that people make it an ideal which means that
it is absolute without exceptions.

For example the "law of attraction" is based upon the idea that similar
frequencies attract each other while dis-similar ones don't attract. However
people think that thoughts/what you focus on will behave exactly the same
way as radio frequencies.

Do you think about carbon dioxide every day? How about the other elements in
the earth and air? They exist independently of your or my thoughts due to
their own consciousness and their linking with larger consciousnesses such
as the Earth's, the Galaxy's, etc.

In my opinion and experience there is something missing from the basic
creation formulas being shared with people...something missing that nobody
has figured out yet. When they do, people will be able to manifest "out of
thin air".

People are "selective" in what areas/themes of life they personally like to
apply such "laws" to. For example one would not believe that they "attract"
or can affect the Sun...(some would say however that if they were "powerful"
enought that they could...these people are stuck in the ideal of an idea).

But people will usually believe that they could or should be able to attract
what is in their life that appears to be out of reach, instead of looking at
what is within reach and going from there.

I believe that ideas are stepping stones to further, more advanced ideas and
such "laws" or "truths" are no more then a useful idea to advance further
in.

In closing I believe that we will grow as fast as our willingness to
disbelieve what we think is real thus freeing ourself to discover what was
previously believed impossible.

The global elite is a focused group which appears to have outside help to
focus upon agendas or goals which many people feel they personally
"attract". Many of these agendas come out of ignorance and not out of
attraction.

You can't stop whoever wins the NFL superbowl any more than stopping this
global elite agenda.

However, you could put in your own football team in the NFL or put in your
own political party to further your agenda. It's all a game.

I believe that this is what your reader meant regarding only "positive"
hearing people wanting positive but no negative news being part of the
problem...I agree.

Too many whiners out there who don't have the guts to put out a football
team but love to excuse themselves from their own responsiblity (or lack of)
under the guise of "natural law".

I'll end with the story of the cat and the bird. A cat killed and ate a
bird. A human observed the event and said "bad cat". The cat replied, "good
bird!"

Good and bad is not real but a perception...

thanks

Kerry


"Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut, that held its ground."
-- David Icke

"All truth passes through 3 stages:
First, it is ridiculed.
Second, it is violently opposed.
Third, it is accepted as being self-evident."
-- Arthur Schopenhauer

"The greatest obstacle to discovery is not ignorance - it
is the illusion of knowledge."
-- Daniel J Boorstin




From: "Sylvia Hicks" <Hicksca@prodigy.net>
Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999

Dear Jean,

Hello, I have been reading yours and others comments/articles/opinions for a
few months now, and I have admittedly been tempted more times than not to
cancel my email address from your listing - only to continue with it and
scan what I find there. By profession I have been in the healing arts all my
life and for the past several years have had a practice as a Certified
Clinical Hypnotherapist.

While I believe it is important to not live one's life with one's head in
the sand, either through fear or denial, I do know from my work and
professional training the power of our thoughts in creating the reality/form
of our life. I know that what we fear we draw toward us into our life. Our
thoughts are energetic in nature and "like attracts like". What we focus on
tends to be actualized. I admire those who stand up and fight for their
convictions; however, I feel that some of the emotionalism I detect in some
of your contributors writings do not ultimately serve the objective in
influencing our world for the better at this point of major evolution. There
are always deeper personal issues at the root of extreme emotional response
to any trigger/cue/stimuli that comes to us from the externals of the world

Constant prophecies of "gloom and doom" to which we are bombarded via the
media and on the Internet feed into our fears, insecurities and sense of
powerlessness before the authorities of the world; and in that expression to
us, those who gain by spreading the fear outwards into the world feel
enhanced. I think that in reading what you have to offer, we are called to
go into our own internal center, balance what is heard and received from
"out there" against our own "heart's intelligence" - our soul's voice - and
respond (not react) to what anyone is telling us is the truth of the
situations playing themselves out around us. There is always a Divine wisdom
behind any event in the world, whether we can see it or appreciate it as it
is occurring.

I thank you for the opportunity to express myself.

Sylvia Hicks




Date: Tue, 16 Nov 1999
From: Gene & Svetlana Albinder <genesa@best.com>
Subject: Re: Genetically Engineered Food

Dear Jean et al - thank you for the material on Genetically Modified foods.
Funny how that works, don't you think? On one hand - the arable land in
the States is being raped by the big agribusiness, prices are down and the
small farmer can't compete. On the other - there is this myth, that the
population of the world is starving and, therefore, we need to figure out
how to produce more ( and of 'better' quality ) from the only land we have.
Which we also happen to own.

The sheer scale of production in the multinational agribusiness presupposes
the condition in which the Earth ( GAYA ) - and I am refering to the
Psycho-Spiritual Being, whose consciousness we are living in, - just simply
isn't taken into account. One would think that a common notion expressed
in Europe with resepect to GM food would somehow alert those who running
these empires, that if the basic staple of life ( i.e. food, which nourshes
the specie and provides for it survival ) is met with such a public
outburst of discontent, - it would be immediately known to those of us in
the States, who share European sentiment with respect to that thing. And
we would speak, - and we would not relent until we know what we eat, at
least. We don't want to know what this thing is for. We just don't want
it. We don't mind you producing it for now. Just label the package.

Unfortunately, and with all the respects paid to the scientists and to the
businessmen who, I am sure with no evil intent whatsoever, are still busy
attempting to 'fix' the genes in a plant or an animal - I can not call this
food at all. While this is possible to affect various properties of the
plant or an animal on the level of the individual gene, - that one altered
gene destroys the natural harmony of the plant - or the animal. Which we
are. Had they studied Alchemy, for example, they would understand that
what is in the plant is a reflection upon what is outside of it. Altering
a genetic structure - improving it, that is, - can only be possible on the
level of the environment in which the gene exists.

Another words, - if you want the land to produce more, - improve you skies,
for the purity of our skies directly contributes to the purity of our soil.
Rains, that fall on the Earth, have acid in them sometimes. How do you
expect the Earth to respond? To improve the skies, - you have to improve
that which you exhale into it. What is our civilization exhaling into this
immence vastitude we call Heavens? Imagine those in Heavens having to
breath that, which we exhale. How do you expect the skies to respond?
Those acid rains are just tears. Of pain. Cancer pain.

Hermetically sealed between Heaven and Earth, we create our own environment.
All life is - inhale - exhale, - and our societies do just that - inhale -
exhale. Imagine having to inhale one hundred million cars twenty four by
seven - being a Spirit of America, let say. If we were to imagine what
would happen, if the Statue of Liberty woke up all of a sudden? What would
She do with a torch then?

There are plenty of questions to be asked - and I don't suppose that there
are any easy answers to all our problems, - suffice it to say that for some
of us, - the term genetic engineering means considerably more than throwing
an extra chemical group into a natural gene, pattenting it, - and then
shoving the product down consumer's throats. This, in my personal opinion,
is plain stupid and displays a considerable lack of scientific foresight.

We dump food in the ocean. We have enough for every man, woman and child
on the face of the Earth - almost four lb. of food every God-given day.
Natural. Why aren't we feeding the World? I have no clue. Business comes
first, I guess. Oh, well... What else is new?

Respectfully,
Gene Albinder.




Date: Sat, 20 Nov 1999
From: Pat Kostakeva <patkosta@earthlink.net>
Subject: Re: More on Chechnya and some strongly worded comments

Just a short reply to Gabriella Taylor: Kicking some butt is exactly what the
Russians and the Chechnyans are doing. Each is convinced they are right. Each is convinced "God" is on their side. Each is convinced that their reason for fighting will ultimately make Chechnya a better place to live. If you could sit down with the leaders of the rebellion, they would tell you exactly this -- As would the Russian president and parliament, and most Russians on the street. So, kicking some butt is what got them into the mess in the first place. Who kicked first and why?

Well, I know I didn't. And if I can convince one or more other people not to do any kicking in their lifetime, then my life is worthwhile. Whether it's chants or peace quilts, if I am NOT kicking, but rather chanting, a change is occurring. Granted, the people involved in the crossfire of any conflict can't do much other than just duck bullets and bombs, but the Metaphysical outlook which posits all of us humans as truly lightfilled beings, all related to one another, opens a new consciousness in otherwise culturally imprisoned peoples who all believe "theirs is the True Religion and they are "The Chosen People".

People in Chechnya have never HEARD of metaphysics because their religious leaders won't let them. Therefore, the quilt might be just what they need to see and learn about. I saw "Peace Tiles" in Moscow when I was there in 1991. Did those tiles help bring about the end of communism? Who knows? I thought they were pretty stupid and inconsequential when I saw them being made in Seattle in 1987, but who knows what role they played. I understand your desire to "DO Something! But what? Who is guilty in Chechnya, and how can we judge? Remember, the rebels did blow up a very, very large apartment building in Moscow. So, who is responsible and what should we do about it? How about sending light to both sides, so that both can give up their narrow-minded provincialism.

Yet, what are people without their religion and culture? This argument can go on and on. I only know Metaphysics -- chanting and meditation, affirmations and
lightwork -- have helped me enormously. I send blessings and light out to the
entire world every day. That's all I can do (and plant trees)!

Blessings

Pat Kostakeva




Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999
From: Jyoti Hansa <JyotiH@connriver.net>
Subject: Re: More on Chechnya and some strongly worded comments

Hi Jean,

In reference to the letter below from Gabriella, I applaud your response.
I "know" that I am on the planet in service to humankind to help others
recognize the ego's frame of reference. What you wrote is beautifully put
and I wanted to let you know how very much in agreement I am with you. I
work with "ask before acting" and that dissipates the ego's frame of
reference no matter what the situation is.

I am an activist by keeping in my peace and thereby without any external
action, influencing others.

I am "Trekker"; teacher of Yoga and it's philosphy and practice a shamanic
way of life as well.

:-) Thank you for eloquent words.


Jyoti




From: jeff.gordon@wellnow.com
Date: Sat, 20 Nov 1999
Subject: Re: More on Chechnya and some strongly worded comments

Hi, Jean --

Palden wondered aloud:

>-...in the American psyche there might be an unconscious
>-connection between masculinity, corporatism and denial of such issues as
>-food politics, which props up the American cover-up on these issues.

It's a reasonable theory, perhaps with a grain of truth to it -- however,
the chief key to unlocking this mystery is that "the Americans" and "the
US Government" are not one and the same. "Americans" don't love
corporatism -- but the US Government clearly does.

The Americans want aspartame to go to hell; but the US Govt says it's
perfectly safe. The Americans want rBGH out of the diary products; but
the Govt says it's perfectly safe. Et cetera.

Please -don't- buy the idea that what's coming from the US Govt is
reflective of "the will of the people". That was certainly the original
idea, and the Govt might still claim that's what's happening; but the
People themselves are definitely puzzled by what they can see the US Govt
doing.

-- Jeff -- http://www.wellnow.com

Well Now Health Information Service
Box 15524 Atlanta Georgia [30333]
eFax: (419) 793-3043

"There's nothing left in the world to prove. All that's worth doing is
to love one another, using any means available to that purpose."




From: "Walt Coon" <jac@novagate.com>
Subject: Comment on the Gabriella Taylor Post:
Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999

Good point Gabriella.

If more think that way, then this may be a future News Headline.

One of the US Peace Planes just crashed on takeoff because of the heavy load
of bombs.

Always remember Gabiella, pillage BEFORE you burn!

Thanks, but, no thanks for your direction. Give me "love and joy" any day.
Tis the balm that slowly changes the world for the better.

The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.
The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.
Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.
What you see in others, shows you yourself.
See the best in others, and you will be your best.
Give to others, and you give to yourself.
Appreciate beauty, and you will be beautiful.
Admire creativity, and you will be creative.
Love, and you will be loved.
Seek to understand, and you will be understood.
Listen, and your voice will be heard.
Teach, and you will learn.
Show your best face to the mirror, and you'll be happy with the face looking
back at you.
Unknown

Walt




HERE IS A TRUE GEM SPARKLING WITH WISDOM FROM AN OLD ERN PARTICIPATING MEMBER

From: "Juliet Easton" <juliet77@negia.net>
Subject: Re: discussion on proper and improper use of prayer
Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999

Jean,

You asked for further responses to this issue, so here it goes...

I feel that to pray that something will or will not happen *can definitely*
have negative consequences! As individuals, we each have a very limited
view of the big picture of things and if we make a decision for this to
happen or that to stop happening, then we are like an ant deciding how to
landscape an entire city. (Actually, I think an ant would do a better job
in this scenario than we would in making global decisions because ants are
more in balance with the Earth than we are!) Yes, our thoughts have a major
impact on the physical world and focused thought (prayer and meditation) is
even more impactful.

As a parent I understand more about how some things work than my kids do
(not all, but some.) There are some things like multiple regression
analysis, calculus, and chemistry that I could spend all day explaining to
my 4-year-old, and he is just not going to understand. He is not at a stage
in his development to grasp these complex systems. We are children as well
in the amount of information we can hold in our consciousness at one time.
Even if we have an experience of being completely connected with all that is
and being aware or all that there is to know, this state of conciousness
cannot be maintained when the brain goes into a decision making mode. How
are we as individuals to know what outcome is for the greatest good in a
particular situation when everything is so interconnected and each event
affects everything else? It's just not possible for the human brain to do
this! God (or the Collective Conciousness, if you prefer), on the other
hand, knows all that was, is now, and is to come, and with that knowledge
can make decisions about what is for the greatest good.

I'm not saying that we shouldn't pray for places, situations, or people. I
am saying that we should not decide what is the best outcome of a situation,
what needs to happen in a person's life, and what is the best thing to
happen in a particular place. You can pray for people, situations, and
places and send them Love and Light and defer the decsion-making to One who
has the knowledge necessary to make the best decsion.

My personal opinion on prayer is that the most effective way to pray is a
series of steps. First, I express gratitude for all that I have been given,
for the many small and big miracles that are occuring in my life, which
opens my heart and fills me with joy. I have found that gratitude, fully
expressed, will open us up, and fill us with more light, and give us a
deeper connection to God than anything else. (How can you give if you are
closed?) I think it is important to use this first step no matter what the
issue is that we each are addressing with prayer.

I feel that prayer is a two-way communication process. It seems to be to
work most effectively when I, already filled with gratitude, joy, light,
love, and peace, bring the issue to God and ask for God's Will to be done in
this matter and that God show me how I can be most effective as a tool for
Divine Will. I also ask for strength and guidance in carrying out my
mission and that my weaknesses be revealed to me so that I can address them.
(I am not only talking about when praying for personal issues, but global
ones as well.)

Sometimes in this communication process, I will be shown a vision of what I
can do concerning this issue. Sometimes I will be shown blockages or
spiritual strongholds in my life that are preventing me from being an
effective servant of God or conduit of Light to the world. Sometimes I am
shown Soul Ties that I have formed with other people that are interfering
with my ability to be an effective vessel of Light in the world. Soul Ties
are formed when there is a strong emotional or a sexual relationship with
someone in your life. I have heard from some people that these dissolve
after 7 years, but I have not found this to be the case. I have found the
most useful way to dissolve these is to first feel them deeply, then release
them and ask for God's assistance in removing them. (I am not saying that
you cannot release them by yourself, only that it seems to be easier with
assistance.)

Sometimes I am shown negative things (or errors in judgement) that I have
done in my life that are preventing me from being able to do what I need to
do. Sometimes these realizations are very powerful and intense and there is
a lot of pent up emotion involved. I have found that it is not enough to
ask for forgiveness from God to be rid of this "stuff". I have found what
really works here is to really feel deeply whatever the thing is, to really
grieve for the mistake deeply as you would grieve for a child that has died,
and then you can really let it go, forgive yourself, be free of it, and move
on.

A dear friend of mine said, "Healed people heal people and hurt people hurt
people." I think that to truly be a conduit of Light to the world we each
have to work on dealing with our own "stuff" so that we can be clear vessels
for the Light to shine through, not muddy ones where the Light gets distorted.

This might seem obvious to most people, but I'll mention it anyhow. Some
people seem to pray with their heads and not their hearts and souls and I
doubt that this does much of anything at all. I think prayer is only
*really* effective when you *really* give of yourself, with your all of your
heart and soul and every ounce of Love and Light in your being fully and
completely connected to All That Is.




From: "Jennifer Catharine Habib" <JennyHabib@berko77.freeserve.co.uk>
Subject: Re: The Positive News Files
Date: Tue, 23 Nov 1999

I am a regular reader of positive news and would like to reinforce your recommendation. This little paper has several times lifted me out of a really gloomy view of the human race. We do tend to think of the wrongs and problems all the time. It is very useful to balance ourselves with knowledge of the really good things which are happening every day.
Peace and light

Jenny




From: "Ani Dolma" <anidolma@millennium.totalserve.co.uk>
Subject: Re: The Positive News Files
Date: Tue, 23 Nov 1999

Thank you Jean. That was wonderful to read, and to pass on.
And with the PBS programming, I think it is the visionary thinking that
helps bring about the manifestation, even if it is no longer one's own
concept.

Love,

Ani




Subject: Re: The Positive News Files
Date: Tue, 23 Nov 99
From: Dianne Allred <openmind@sedona.net>

In response to the Positive News Files:

While I think it is important to remain positive, I can find no evidence
that would lead me to give any more credence to one statistical report
over another... In reality, all I can go on to measure where we're at, is
what I see happening to me and those around me... And that is intense
financial struggle...

If things are so great, then why are so many people, especially in the
spiritual communities, losing their businesses, and homes, and everything
they have?... and also losing their health due to not having insurance to
be able to receive adequate healthcare?

If we have enough farmland, that's great... Then why is food so expensive...
And as long as anyone in the world is starving to death, no matter what the reason, that to me says the system is not working...

If we're not running out of energy, great!... Then why is gasoline so
expensive, and why are people struggling to keep their lights on... or
even dying because they couldn't afford heat or air conditioning?...
That is happening in this country...

If there is not an overpopulation problem, then why are there so many
homeless people?... And why can't everyone afford a home?... There are at
least 6,000 homeless people in Denver right now... And only enough
shelters for 2,000...

What I'm saying is, when we're looking at statistics, let's look at them
realistically... and not go from one extreme to the other... from doom and
gloom to "everything's OK"... because realistically, it's not OK...

Actually, I'm hoping that we're on the verge of a major monetary
collapse, so that we'll have to devise a new and more equitable way of
taking care of ourselves and each other...

Dianne Allred
Sedona's Open Mind Magazine
http://nen.sedona.net/openmind




NOTE FROM JEAN: I'LL HAVE MORE INFORMATION ABOUT PUERTO RICO IN MY NEXT EMAIL

From: "Mike Donato" <donatom@prtc.net>
Subject: Your Urgent Support
Date: Sun, 21 Nov 1999

Hello Jean;

We need your help, please pass this information to your readers.
If you are not aware, the people of Puerto Rico have a need for
international support concering the presence of the U.S. Navy on the island
of vieques (a municipality of Puerto Rico). The U.S. Navy practices with
live bombing ammunition adjacent to civilian population. A recent incident
involving the accidental death of a civilian by a "loose bomb" sparked a
protest to remove the presence of the USN out of vieques from Puerto Ricans.
About 2/3 of the entire population agrees to the 'cease fire" . There have
been congressional meetings in Washington and the decision now lies on
President Clinton to order the continuation of live bombing on vieques. The
USN claims that Vieques is absolutely critical for warfare preperation and
that to stop the bombing will impact national and internatioal military
efforts.

The military excercises on Vieques are conducted near civilian population
(which happens to have a 35% higher cancer rate than the rest of the Puerto
Rican Population). Children's education is being impacted as the noise from
the bomber plane interrupt the schooling process Environmental Laws are being broken by the navy, As well as precious reefdestroyed.

The inclination of the President is to resume the bombing, the people of
puerto rico have threatened to go into civil disobedience (this includes
members of all policital parties on the island), with this will come federal
intervention, arrest and possible outbreak of violence..... Please support
our efforts to peaceful resolution to this affair.

http://www.viequeslibre.org/




Date: Thu, 18 Nov 1999
From: Palden Jenkins <palden@globalnet.co.uk>
Subject: Cracked pots

A Cracked Pot

A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each end of a pole
which he carried across his neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was perfect and
always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from
the stream to the masters house. The cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only
one and a half pots full of water in his master's house. Of course, the
perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was
ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to
accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to
the water bearer one day by the stream.

"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologise to you."

"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"

"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load
because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to
your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work,
and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion
he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the
beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the
sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this
cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it
had leaked out half its load, and so again the pot apologised to the bearer
for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on
your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side?

That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of
it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we
walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been
able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without
you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his
house."

Know that in our weakness we find our strength.

(Author Unknown)




From: Livvi@aol.com
Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999
Subject: Cyclone relief - you can help

This is an effortless free way to help the victims of a disaster.... thanks!

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May our prayerful thoughts help those in distress.




From: Mona LaVine, Santa Monica CA <monajl@earthlink.net

Hi folks,

I received this from one of our co-workers and thought I would pass it along:

We heard recently from someone who returned from India. Her group met with
the Dalai Lama for several days. The meetings focused on dialoguing what
they believed were the 5 most important questions to be considered moving
into the new millennium. The group were asked to come up with five
questions before meeting with the Dalai Lama. They asked:

* How do we address the widening gap between rich and poor?
* How do we protect the earth
* How do we educate our children?
* How do we help Tibet and other oppressed countries/peoples?
* How do we bring spirituality - deep caring for each other - through all
disciplines?

The Dalai Lama said all the questions fall under the last one. If we have
true compassion, our children will be educated, we will care for the earth,
and for those who "have not". He asked the group: Do you think loving on
the planet is increasing or staying the same? His own response was, "My
experience leads me to believe that love IS increasing." He shared a
practice with the group that will increase loving and compassion in the
world, and asked everyone attending to go home and share it with as many
people as possible.The Practice:

1. Spend 5 minutes at the beginning of each day remembering we all want the
same thing (to be happy and loved) and we are all connected.

2. Spend 5 minutes cherishing yourself and others. Let go of judgments.
Breathe in cherishing yourself, and breathe out cherishing others. If the
faces of people you are having difficulty with appear, cherish them as well.

3. During the day extend that attitude to everyone you meet - we are all
the same, and I cherish myself and you [do it with the grocery store clerk,
the client, your family, co-workers, etc.].

4. Stay in the practice, no matter what happens.



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